My “Christmas Wish”: End it all…

I don’t get it.

I really don’t.

Struggles are a part of everyday life, yes. There’s no good way to avoid them, and no pill to take to get rid of them.

I just wish there was a way to end my current ones.

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I’m struggling with keeping my sanity. I’m struggling with making a decision of whether or not to leave the church. I’m struggling with dealing with certain people. And I’m struggling under all this insane pressure. And it often appears that I’m just going to collapse.

Is it not obvious that maybe I need a little bit of help?

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Where are my friends? And why don’t they just help me to get my mind off of things?

Not in my line of sight, apparently.

I understand that everybody has their own life to live, and that nobody in their right mind should be dedicated to helping somebody else live theirs to the point it causes conflict.

But, sometimes it’s the simple stuff that you really don’t notice are missing, until you need them, that really get me.

Has the idea of friendship been lost on people?

What has happened to the idea of a simple message of “Hey JeRemy, I just wanted to say that I was thinking about you.” or even a simple gesture such as attempting to take up a seat next to me.

I hate to say it, but sometimes, it would appear these friends of mine, conveniently forget how to be a friend when it matters the most.

Now, this isn’t a post to yell at everybody, because there are a few people out there that genuinely care, but don’t know what to say, or do, and therefore do nothing, and I get that.

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I’m sorry if it seems unfair. But this is the way I’m feeling.

I can’t help but feel this way.

My friends need to put up or shut up.

- JeRemy.